Hi guys, (bashful..)
I feel kinda bad.
I hardly ever post on LJ at all anymore, and I kind of miss it.
I'm just really busy with life, and I have another account that I use more than this one (
love_rainbow). At first I just wanted to keep it only for close friends, but you know, I don't even use the friend filter on some entries anymore and I just don't care.
I'm moving away from Miyavi and visual kei and all that. I can't really explain the significance of that for me, but basically I feel like I have mastered all of the things that those experiences were in my life for. Also, leaving Masakarasu ended up being one of the most liberating things I could've done (even though leaving wasn't really my choice, but it never would have been, I never would've left!), though, I definitely miss having contact with so many amazing people, not just the team members but the readers too. But now it's like nothing and everything defines who I am, and I feel closer to the person I was as a child then ever before. Everything is just boundless and out there for me to love and experience.
I got a job finally at Forever 21 in Harajuku, as most people reading this probably already know.
It's really great, and there are lots of other foreigners there (mostly Russian and Chinese), but there are also a few people who have actually graduated from fashion design colleges and schools as well. Talking to them is so much easier and smoother than talking with non-art people, and such a thing never fails to surprise me. No matter what country or culture, what language or any other illusion of separation that we have, us art kids just speak the same language deep down. It's like an unseen unheard communication of the heart or something.
Like you can offer a suggestion for a better way of doing a task, or inform them that the manager wants it to be done differently, and they don't become irritated and stubborn. Even if they don't agree they'll voice it in a very open way. Perhaps not all art kids are like this, and surely there are non-artistic people who are also like this. But perhaps it isn't all about ART but the kind of open mind, open heart, and objective point of view that artists often possess naturally.
Also, having so many fashion kids around is helping me to re-kindle my old desire to make clothes and stuff. It's actually very exciting!
Mimu's sister, who's in Japan now and graduated from a fashion school, has a mini sewing machine and has offered to let me borrow it. I think I'm just going to make a few simple things for practice first, and then buy my own sewing machine once I get the hang of it. Because even though I know how to use a sewing machine, I haven't had enough experience with it to know what things about it I would prefer.
I went to Marunan (5-floor fabric store) in Shibuya yesterday. It never has felt so full of potential as last night for some reason. I think it was because I had more of a plan, perhaps. I want to make simple feminine clothes out of natural fibers like hemp, cotton, and linen. Hemp/linen are pretty expensive, but they had some SUPER cheap cotton rolls outside. I can't figure out why they were so cheap, they weren't knits, they were just like the hemp ones, only cotton. I just don't get it, hemp is so much easier to grow and produce than cotton, isn't it? So why is hemp so fucking expensive and hard to find? Fucking EVERYTHING should be hemp, considering how versatile, durable, and easy it is. Cotton would go out of busine....oh, that's why! XD
They also had a few patterns that I was interested in. When I get the hang of making clothes on my own, I want to make my own patterns or something. I'm really excited!
Anyway, please keep an eye onlove_rainbow since I will probably not be posting on here much anymore. But sometimes I do, so don't take it off your friends list just yet!
Better get ready for work! Take care, friends~
-Jessica
I feel kinda bad.
I hardly ever post on LJ at all anymore, and I kind of miss it.
I'm just really busy with life, and I have another account that I use more than this one (
love_rainbow). At first I just wanted to keep it only for close friends, but you know, I don't even use the friend filter on some entries anymore and I just don't care.I'm moving away from Miyavi and visual kei and all that. I can't really explain the significance of that for me, but basically I feel like I have mastered all of the things that those experiences were in my life for. Also, leaving Masakarasu ended up being one of the most liberating things I could've done (even though leaving wasn't really my choice, but it never would have been, I never would've left!), though, I definitely miss having contact with so many amazing people, not just the team members but the readers too. But now it's like nothing and everything defines who I am, and I feel closer to the person I was as a child then ever before. Everything is just boundless and out there for me to love and experience.
I got a job finally at Forever 21 in Harajuku, as most people reading this probably already know.
It's really great, and there are lots of other foreigners there (mostly Russian and Chinese), but there are also a few people who have actually graduated from fashion design colleges and schools as well. Talking to them is so much easier and smoother than talking with non-art people, and such a thing never fails to surprise me. No matter what country or culture, what language or any other illusion of separation that we have, us art kids just speak the same language deep down. It's like an unseen unheard communication of the heart or something.
Like you can offer a suggestion for a better way of doing a task, or inform them that the manager wants it to be done differently, and they don't become irritated and stubborn. Even if they don't agree they'll voice it in a very open way. Perhaps not all art kids are like this, and surely there are non-artistic people who are also like this. But perhaps it isn't all about ART but the kind of open mind, open heart, and objective point of view that artists often possess naturally.
Also, having so many fashion kids around is helping me to re-kindle my old desire to make clothes and stuff. It's actually very exciting!
Mimu's sister, who's in Japan now and graduated from a fashion school, has a mini sewing machine and has offered to let me borrow it. I think I'm just going to make a few simple things for practice first, and then buy my own sewing machine once I get the hang of it. Because even though I know how to use a sewing machine, I haven't had enough experience with it to know what things about it I would prefer.
I went to Marunan (5-floor fabric store) in Shibuya yesterday. It never has felt so full of potential as last night for some reason. I think it was because I had more of a plan, perhaps. I want to make simple feminine clothes out of natural fibers like hemp, cotton, and linen. Hemp/linen are pretty expensive, but they had some SUPER cheap cotton rolls outside. I can't figure out why they were so cheap, they weren't knits, they were just like the hemp ones, only cotton. I just don't get it, hemp is so much easier to grow and produce than cotton, isn't it? So why is hemp so fucking expensive and hard to find? Fucking EVERYTHING should be hemp, considering how versatile, durable, and easy it is. Cotton would go out of busine....oh, that's why! XD
They also had a few patterns that I was interested in. When I get the hang of making clothes on my own, I want to make my own patterns or something. I'm really excited!
Anyway, please keep an eye on
love_rainbow since I will probably not be posting on here much anymore. But sometimes I do, so don't take it off your friends list just yet! Better get ready for work! Take care, friends~
-Jessica
http://peacephilosophy.blogspot.com/201
Especially Americans and Japanese people, need to read this.
Not enough people really have any idea of what happened in Japan. We all know much about what Japan did to Asia and to well...one specific pearl harbor, but a shamefully small amount is known about what the US did there. This isn't graphic or dificult to read, and I hope it inspires some people to check out some things on wikipedia even. the statistics are there for anyone to see. The US plainly attempted their own holocaust on the Japanese people and nearly suceeded.
Especially Americans and Japanese people, need to read this.
Not enough people really have any idea of what happened in Japan. We all know much about what Japan did to Asia and to well...one specific pearl harbor, but a shamefully small amount is known about what the US did there. This isn't graphic or dificult to read, and I hope it inspires some people to check out some things on wikipedia even. the statistics are there for anyone to see. The US plainly attempted their own holocaust on the Japanese people and nearly suceeded.
So I figured that maybe people who know me more for my Miyavi connections will read this entry if I wrote it here.
This is gonna be short and sweet because I'm really tired.
A very brief review on the new DVD that's out - the Neo Samurai Black Tour etc etc
First of all, it's very obviously marketed specifically for Japanese audiences. All of the commentaries, from Miyavi and the band, are in Japanese, and the subtitles are all in Japanese of course. That's no big deal or anything I just wanted to point that out, because it'll be important for the rest of this review.
The whole thing sounded like a 60 Minutes episode of someone's tragic death or something. The background music in the beginning is very suggestive of depressing tragedy or mystery or something like that. It comes on and off but for the entire beginning part, it's playing the whole time.
I really liked watching what all of the fans had to say about Miyavi and not seeing any really BAD audiences. I know that the non-Japanese crowds can be very violent and ugly but this was not in the video at all. So I felt proud of everyone!
However, there was WAY too much of Miyavi fainting and falling and dying and crying. I'm glad that we could see what he really went through, and I think that perhaps foreign fans SEEING this is important....
But I refer back to my very first statement. This is very obviously marketed for Japanese people. So Japanese fans are gonna watch this and what kind of message are they going to get? Whether it's a direct message or something more subliminal (because of the background music) , there is clearly something negatively being conveyed about foreign fans, doing world tours as a Japanese person, etc.
What sucks is that it's SO BIASED in that way. Most people who do world tours plan their tour schedules A LOT SMARTER. People don't do 6 days in a row and then fly off to do a concert in another country in just a day or so later. That's inhumane. Not even businessmen work that much. Also, a lot of artists use tour buses less and less for long distances. They use airplanes, and use buses for ground transportation from hotel to venue. More poor planning.
And then to keep moving on after breaking your ribs, when you were already kinda sick and tired.... that's asking for some serious trouble.
I feel like this video is completely ignoring Miyavi's entourage's lack of tour planning skills, and no sense of stopping for the sake of the artist's health, and completely portraying that blame on the non-Japanese fanbase - making us look bad and take that blame in the eyes of the ALREADY mildly racist Japanese fans. (I say this because in Japan, EVERYTHING is foreign except full-blooded Japanese, even if they're in another country, even if you're born in Japan, even if you fully speak Japanese, even if you've been naturalized. You're treated differently socially and only a few very lucky individuals are able to socially assimilate - namely, Korean and Chinese people.)
Anyway, thanks a lot Miyavi :P This really is gonna SUCK for those of us fans who actually DID know about what was going on, and DID care, and DID want you to go home - regardless of what country we resided in at the time. It especially sucks for those of us who already live in Japan (Yes, foreigners living in Japan, who've never gone to your concerts outside of Japan because they reside in Japan :o!) even though we're no different than the Japanese fans, now JUST BECAUSE WE'RE NOT ASIAN, we're gonna get judged!
Also I would like to make a very small side note
The President of PSC was on the tour bus with Miyavi IN the video, which makes me question J-glam's management. Unless PSC did their tour or something... This'll help explain why this is even relevant.
SO
All-in-all, this was an interesting video. Would I watch it again? Maybe, depends. It wasn't BAD, but it definitely made me frustrated because of the message it's portraying to Japanese fans. Not sure whether or not that was even intentional, but they might have just written it right there on the cover! It would've saved our gaijin asses 8800yen! There was a lot of fainting and crying and stuff too... so even while people had a great time, it's like it was a horrible failure just because Miyavi failed to heed warning signs that he needed to rest. I didn't like that either. While there ARE some crazy careless fans out there, I DO feel bad for the sympathetic fans out there who totally are getting slapped in the face with this video. Yeah.. Do Not Support :P
HOWEVER
It did come with a REALLY COOL USB BRACELET THING! It just has the same video and the new song on it pretty much, but like if it's possible to reuse that USB? Like, shit dudes, that's really awesome! You'll never have to worry about forgetting stuff, you can just WEAR your technology XD haha
hmm... yeah that's about all I have to say about it.
This is gonna be short and sweet because I'm really tired.
A very brief review on the new DVD that's out - the Neo Samurai Black Tour etc etc
First of all, it's very obviously marketed specifically for Japanese audiences. All of the commentaries, from Miyavi and the band, are in Japanese, and the subtitles are all in Japanese of course. That's no big deal or anything I just wanted to point that out, because it'll be important for the rest of this review.
The whole thing sounded like a 60 Minutes episode of someone's tragic death or something. The background music in the beginning is very suggestive of depressing tragedy or mystery or something like that. It comes on and off but for the entire beginning part, it's playing the whole time.
I really liked watching what all of the fans had to say about Miyavi and not seeing any really BAD audiences. I know that the non-Japanese crowds can be very violent and ugly but this was not in the video at all. So I felt proud of everyone!
However, there was WAY too much of Miyavi fainting and falling and dying and crying. I'm glad that we could see what he really went through, and I think that perhaps foreign fans SEEING this is important....
But I refer back to my very first statement. This is very obviously marketed for Japanese people. So Japanese fans are gonna watch this and what kind of message are they going to get? Whether it's a direct message or something more subliminal (because of the background music) , there is clearly something negatively being conveyed about foreign fans, doing world tours as a Japanese person, etc.
What sucks is that it's SO BIASED in that way. Most people who do world tours plan their tour schedules A LOT SMARTER. People don't do 6 days in a row and then fly off to do a concert in another country in just a day or so later. That's inhumane. Not even businessmen work that much. Also, a lot of artists use tour buses less and less for long distances. They use airplanes, and use buses for ground transportation from hotel to venue. More poor planning.
And then to keep moving on after breaking your ribs, when you were already kinda sick and tired.... that's asking for some serious trouble.
I feel like this video is completely ignoring Miyavi's entourage's lack of tour planning skills, and no sense of stopping for the sake of the artist's health, and completely portraying that blame on the non-Japanese fanbase - making us look bad and take that blame in the eyes of the ALREADY mildly racist Japanese fans. (I say this because in Japan, EVERYTHING is foreign except full-blooded Japanese, even if they're in another country, even if you're born in Japan, even if you fully speak Japanese, even if you've been naturalized. You're treated differently socially and only a few very lucky individuals are able to socially assimilate - namely, Korean and Chinese people.)
Anyway, thanks a lot Miyavi :P This really is gonna SUCK for those of us fans who actually DID know about what was going on, and DID care, and DID want you to go home - regardless of what country we resided in at the time. It especially sucks for those of us who already live in Japan (Yes, foreigners living in Japan, who've never gone to your concerts outside of Japan because they reside in Japan :o!) even though we're no different than the Japanese fans, now JUST BECAUSE WE'RE NOT ASIAN, we're gonna get judged!
Also I would like to make a very small side note
The President of PSC was on the tour bus with Miyavi IN the video, which makes me question J-glam's management. Unless PSC did their tour or something... This'll help explain why this is even relevant.
SO
All-in-all, this was an interesting video. Would I watch it again? Maybe, depends. It wasn't BAD, but it definitely made me frustrated because of the message it's portraying to Japanese fans. Not sure whether or not that was even intentional, but they might have just written it right there on the cover! It would've saved our gaijin asses 8800yen! There was a lot of fainting and crying and stuff too... so even while people had a great time, it's like it was a horrible failure just because Miyavi failed to heed warning signs that he needed to rest. I didn't like that either. While there ARE some crazy careless fans out there, I DO feel bad for the sympathetic fans out there who totally are getting slapped in the face with this video. Yeah.. Do Not Support :P
HOWEVER
It did come with a REALLY COOL USB BRACELET THING! It just has the same video and the new song on it pretty much, but like if it's possible to reuse that USB? Like, shit dudes, that's really awesome! You'll never have to worry about forgetting stuff, you can just WEAR your technology XD haha
hmm... yeah that's about all I have to say about it.
So today was full of surprises in unexpected ways.
Mimu woke up at about 9am, which is early for us since usually we worked at 11am, because he wants to go to work earlier so he can get off earlier. I woke up with him to say goodbye and help him take out the trash for the garbage collectors. Usually I'd just go back to sleep but I decided to stay up and study teaching English lessons. I have an interview on Thursday and I'm excited about it; I really want to do a good job and impress them not just because I need the job but I want to get into teaching. It'll open up opportunities for me!
So I contemplated sleeping, decided against it. While the tea kettle was heating up I hung all the bed futon stuffs out on the balcony and took all the laundry from yesterday inside and put it all away. Then I ate breakfast - muffins and coffee - and dusted and vacuumed the whole house.
It was only 11am!
So I organized the bookshelf and tables and threw tons of stuff away - 12pm. I exercised and listened to some spiritual thing on youtube, 1pm. Got stuff ready and left on a journey for the perfect business jacket for my interview! (and all future interviews)
First stop: Uniqlo about 30 meters from my house XD They had the perfect jackets but.. the perfect one, which was on sale for only about $30, was one size too small. I could fit into it, but I couldn't comfortably hold my hands straight out in front of me, and I was worried about the buttons if I'd sit down. The other one had sleeves that only covered half my forearm. Since most of the shirts I'd wear under it are long sleeved, I felt that was a fashion faux-pas and decided to bike to the nearest next uniqlo. It's kinda far.
No luck there at all, and Uniqlo was in a department store full of super poshy designer clothes and bratty children with their snobby mothers. I do NOT understand that sector of society even though it's ALL OVER TOKYO.
I went to a different department store back in my range of town and there were no women's jackets, only men's. So I googled and played with the kittens and puppies and fish and bunnies and stuff in the pet section and left there with a cinnamon pastry (I hadn't eaten since breakfast and it was almost 5pm by now, I was so hungry I was nauseous!)
Back to Uniqlo and moaning over my choices.
Went to a REAL business/formal wear store about 200meters the other direction from my house. That is RIDICULOUSLY sad! It was like.. everything was $200-400 and REALLY nice. I just asked the guy for something business-y and plain and he showed me somthing for like $145. I was like "dude this is my first time buying one. I just need it for an interview... um..." So he brought me to this single rack of like 15 jackets that were all like $30-$70, that were RIGHT BY THE DOOR. If I had found that when I walked in, I would've saved myself the embarrassment. What's more, it's like right by the door as if they don't mind if people walk out with them. So even if I did like their sandpaper-y cheap jackets, I'd feel stupid actually buying it.
No wonder no one ever goes there.
Went back home, ate some boiled vegetables quickly, chatted a little, and went right back out to Shibuya. I went to two Uniqlos and a bunch of other places until FINALLY
FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY
I landed at H&M in Harajuku where they were having an ENORMOUS sale on awesome stuff! (PS - H&M is WAY more expensive, conservative, and posh than what you'd normally get in the US. It's so unfair, but TODAY was a good day!)
Here's what I got:
Jacket - Fuchsia Cotton/polyamide? 2000yen (approx. $20)
Ok, Mimu says this isn't really business attire but I think I look professional enough in it. Nice black wool coats were either too big, too small, too long, something was weird about their shape, or they were $100 or more. Besides, I'm a woman, not a man, and so I'm not expected to be in a tux or a suit. This is close enough. Also, if I wear it with a black pencil skirt, a turtleneck, and a fancy necklace, I can pull off business/formal no prob.
ps- this is more like what the actual color is, but it was too fuzzy. Stupid camera.
Shirt - Royal Blue Polyester/polyamide 1000yen (approx. $10)
I do not own ANYTHING that is blue. I used to hate the color blue despite the fact that emotional, spiritual, artsy people often like watery colors like blue. I like anything in the purple-to-orange range, normally, but ever since my whole rainbow obsession, I've opened up to other colors. This color blue looks very good on my skin. I tend to like, and look good in, bright bold colors like this.
I also bought a black wool pencil skirt for 1500yen (~$15) but the picture turned out really fuzzy and dumb. It's just a black square, so... use your imagination XD
btw, like my socks? they're just fuzzy pink socks I wear around the house because it's so cold.
So like wow, I am running on 6 hours of sleep and yet I have tons of energy and have been going and going all day long. I'm EXHAUSTED now though, and will probably go to bed like now XD
LATAZ
ps- add me @love_rainbow. Not enough people are commenting so I assume people haven't added it
Mimu woke up at about 9am, which is early for us since usually we worked at 11am, because he wants to go to work earlier so he can get off earlier. I woke up with him to say goodbye and help him take out the trash for the garbage collectors. Usually I'd just go back to sleep but I decided to stay up and study teaching English lessons. I have an interview on Thursday and I'm excited about it; I really want to do a good job and impress them not just because I need the job but I want to get into teaching. It'll open up opportunities for me!
So I contemplated sleeping, decided against it. While the tea kettle was heating up I hung all the bed futon stuffs out on the balcony and took all the laundry from yesterday inside and put it all away. Then I ate breakfast - muffins and coffee - and dusted and vacuumed the whole house.
It was only 11am!
So I organized the bookshelf and tables and threw tons of stuff away - 12pm. I exercised and listened to some spiritual thing on youtube, 1pm. Got stuff ready and left on a journey for the perfect business jacket for my interview! (and all future interviews)
First stop: Uniqlo about 30 meters from my house XD They had the perfect jackets but.. the perfect one, which was on sale for only about $30, was one size too small. I could fit into it, but I couldn't comfortably hold my hands straight out in front of me, and I was worried about the buttons if I'd sit down. The other one had sleeves that only covered half my forearm. Since most of the shirts I'd wear under it are long sleeved, I felt that was a fashion faux-pas and decided to bike to the nearest next uniqlo. It's kinda far.
No luck there at all, and Uniqlo was in a department store full of super poshy designer clothes and bratty children with their snobby mothers. I do NOT understand that sector of society even though it's ALL OVER TOKYO.
I went to a different department store back in my range of town and there were no women's jackets, only men's. So I googled and played with the kittens and puppies and fish and bunnies and stuff in the pet section and left there with a cinnamon pastry (I hadn't eaten since breakfast and it was almost 5pm by now, I was so hungry I was nauseous!)
Back to Uniqlo and moaning over my choices.
Went to a REAL business/formal wear store about 200meters the other direction from my house. That is RIDICULOUSLY sad! It was like.. everything was $200-400 and REALLY nice. I just asked the guy for something business-y and plain and he showed me somthing for like $145. I was like "dude this is my first time buying one. I just need it for an interview... um..." So he brought me to this single rack of like 15 jackets that were all like $30-$70, that were RIGHT BY THE DOOR. If I had found that when I walked in, I would've saved myself the embarrassment. What's more, it's like right by the door as if they don't mind if people walk out with them. So even if I did like their sandpaper-y cheap jackets, I'd feel stupid actually buying it.
No wonder no one ever goes there.
Went back home, ate some boiled vegetables quickly, chatted a little, and went right back out to Shibuya. I went to two Uniqlos and a bunch of other places until FINALLY
FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY
I landed at H&M in Harajuku where they were having an ENORMOUS sale on awesome stuff! (PS - H&M is WAY more expensive, conservative, and posh than what you'd normally get in the US. It's so unfair, but TODAY was a good day!)
Here's what I got:
Jacket - Fuchsia Cotton/polyamide? 2000yen (approx. $20)
Ok, Mimu says this isn't really business attire but I think I look professional enough in it. Nice black wool coats were either too big, too small, too long, something was weird about their shape, or they were $100 or more. Besides, I'm a woman, not a man, and so I'm not expected to be in a tux or a suit. This is close enough. Also, if I wear it with a black pencil skirt, a turtleneck, and a fancy necklace, I can pull off business/formal no prob.
ps- this is more like what the actual color is, but it was too fuzzy. Stupid camera.
Shirt - Royal Blue Polyester/polyamide 1000yen (approx. $10)
I do not own ANYTHING that is blue. I used to hate the color blue despite the fact that emotional, spiritual, artsy people often like watery colors like blue. I like anything in the purple-to-orange range, normally, but ever since my whole rainbow obsession, I've opened up to other colors. This color blue looks very good on my skin. I tend to like, and look good in, bright bold colors like this.
I also bought a black wool pencil skirt for 1500yen (~$15) but the picture turned out really fuzzy and dumb. It's just a black square, so... use your imagination XD
btw, like my socks? they're just fuzzy pink socks I wear around the house because it's so cold.
So like wow, I am running on 6 hours of sleep and yet I have tons of energy and have been going and going all day long. I'm EXHAUSTED now though, and will probably go to bed like now XD
LATAZ
ps- add me @
love_rainbow. Not enough people are commenting so I assume people haven't added itジェシカ☆사랑 says:
*GEEK MOMENT
*http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/c
*This is am image of the center most point of the galaxy in infrared light because there's too much dust in the way to actually be able to see it normally.
*A lot of those stars look the same
*so I'm going to vouchure that they are - they are just moving SO fast and the camera shutter isn't fast enough on the satellite to be able to take a quick enough shot
*and that maybe part of the reason why galaxies are so big is because every enormous object sort of gravitates towards other massive objects and oher objects gravitate toward them, including black holes
*so it's probably the center of the galaxy, because it's the center of the galaxy - black hole or not.
*there's probably a ton of black holes, and a ton of HUGE stars, and that's causing it to be what it is
*and and and
*(!!)
*the'yre not just spinning around the center, but also around each other too
*GEEK MOMENT
*http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/c
*This is am image of the center most point of the galaxy in infrared light because there's too much dust in the way to actually be able to see it normally.
*A lot of those stars look the same
*so I'm going to vouchure that they are - they are just moving SO fast and the camera shutter isn't fast enough on the satellite to be able to take a quick enough shot
*and that maybe part of the reason why galaxies are so big is because every enormous object sort of gravitates towards other massive objects and oher objects gravitate toward them, including black holes
*so it's probably the center of the galaxy, because it's the center of the galaxy - black hole or not.
*there's probably a ton of black holes, and a ton of HUGE stars, and that's causing it to be what it is
*and and and
*(!!)
*the'yre not just spinning around the center, but also around each other too
Crap - I made another one.
I'm not even using it so if anyone's interested... (poke Stevie)
PS - people who have friended me here, who really read this and actually find me interesting, inspiring, care about me, and especially people who are MUTUAL friends - should comment on my Friend's only accountlove_rainbow Because I think I'm going to try to use that one more often. If I don't see the people I wanna see I'll be messaging you guys! *points around threateningly*
I'm not even using it so if anyone's interested... (poke Stevie)
PS - people who have friended me here, who really read this and actually find me interesting, inspiring, care about me, and especially people who are MUTUAL friends - should comment on my Friend's only account
love_rainbow Because I think I'm going to try to use that one more often. If I don't see the people I wanna see I'll be messaging you guys! *points around threateningly*
HAPPY NEW YEAR! for those of you who I haven't said that to yet
I say this every year but I have a good feeling about this one.
THe only not-so-good feeling is that I'm afraid that despite me saying that I feel good about 2010, it might suck just like 2008 and 2009 did. 2007 was pretty cool, 2006 sucked but I knew it would XD 2005 was AWESOME 2004 was literally like preparation for 2005.
I feel like 2008 had a lot of thinking and experiencing and pondering for me.
2009 had a lot of destruction and despair and life falling apart in my hands.
I feel like 2010 will mark letting go of things in a peaceful and joyful way and bringing in a lot of light and inspiring things that'll make our lives better
I dunno I think it'll be ok. We had a full moon that night, and I felt really good. I saw Avatar and felt pretty good about the message there (except I was SO SAD about the tree... I cried so hard, and was upset about it like even hours after the movie ended.)
Anyway I'm trying to get this stupid display picture to work, I wanna make it my new default pic (my LJ is totally due for that by now) but it keeps giving me an error: unable to resize image or something.
Full image
Or this one (same as above, without the stars)
Full image
It's a png image saved from a photoshop image and it's originally like 600 x 600 I think. Maybe the size and quality is making it hard to resize it?? Maybe png files are more difficult to resize? Maybe Livejournal is being a butthead?
I say this every year but I have a good feeling about this one.
THe only not-so-good feeling is that I'm afraid that despite me saying that I feel good about 2010, it might suck just like 2008 and 2009 did. 2007 was pretty cool, 2006 sucked but I knew it would XD 2005 was AWESOME 2004 was literally like preparation for 2005.
I feel like 2008 had a lot of thinking and experiencing and pondering for me.
2009 had a lot of destruction and despair and life falling apart in my hands.
I feel like 2010 will mark letting go of things in a peaceful and joyful way and bringing in a lot of light and inspiring things that'll make our lives better
I dunno I think it'll be ok. We had a full moon that night, and I felt really good. I saw Avatar and felt pretty good about the message there (except I was SO SAD about the tree... I cried so hard, and was upset about it like even hours after the movie ended.)
Anyway I'm trying to get this stupid display picture to work, I wanna make it my new default pic (my LJ is totally due for that by now) but it keeps giving me an error: unable to resize image or something.
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Or this one (same as above, without the stars)
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It's a png image saved from a photoshop image and it's originally like 600 x 600 I think. Maybe the size and quality is making it hard to resize it?? Maybe png files are more difficult to resize? Maybe Livejournal is being a butthead?
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This piece is both inspired by the song "Bliss" by Muse, and also from a spiritual message I received the day I heard the song for the first time. It was about how loving someone or adoring them, is actually loving something in them that you desire within yourself.
If you can acknowledge that and allow yourself to feel that which you desire within yourself, you can truly free yourself from the "spell" of infatuation, and either let the person go or truly love them for the bliss that now you both share. You can look at them and go "Everything about you is how I'd be" rather than "Everything about you is how I'd *want* to be". You can see in them the feeling you now know and share together.
I wanted to draw something that embodied that feeling that I felt in another person, and expressed how I felt when I realized that I had it in me unrecognized all along. It was freedom and happiness and bliss, just like the song suggests.
Become one with that which you love in another, because we are all inherently one with each other and this kind of love is the experience of opening up all of our collective potential.
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